I am the nuisance beaver
you slaughtered one Christmas.
My flat tail disarticulated before you
splayed open my rib cage like a quilt.
The deep maroon of intercostals connecting
bone. I’ve become an apron of animal, all grass
and reed and nut in flesh, the brilliant chlorophylls
ground up with my yellow teeth magnificent.
You remember me marooned and recall the novel
where its characters eat dessert of snapping-turtle blood
and chocolate. The nitrogen and urea gave it depth
like the waters I dammed. It all comes back
to animal. It all comes down to the small hours
of night when I bundled myself, my tenacity rising
with dawn. I took down tree after tree, pushing the stink
of human run-off away.
Unfair advantage: buckshot.
You took me out with a bullet under my left eye.
Pan-fried, I evaporate musk.
It is oil and urine and vanilla and tungsten,
the taste of river and resin of the north woods.
You make a fajita dinner of me, your family complicit
in their bites. You become tail-slap loud
and toe-webbed. Fragmented, I weave
into your cells. All I wanted was to be close
to water, the heart of the world near mine.
Listen with me now, how it cracks
and crumbles, your hands damning the earth,
our ribs flattened against soil.